brimful of asha

I have 4 weeks and 6 days until my due date! hiyah. I don't expect junior to show up until he is darn well ready. I am pretty much ready to not be preggo anymore though. I hurt everywhere! I started with a new chiropractor yesterday, best thing ever. She is so much better, more natural, and I heart her. My DS1 is starting to show some signs that he knows a baby is coming. He kisses my belly and talks about little brother. He also throws things at my belly and is acting funny too. Hmmm. I hope that we can all make a harmonious transition into a family of 4 (+ 2 cats).

I am hoping to get off the mental meds asap, but I can't make a major change just before or after birth. bad idea methinks. I have felt guilty for taking them during pregnancy, but nothing else was working and I was becoming something terrible. I have dealt with these issues my whole life and I know when I am too close to the edge!

I am excited to put the new baby in all the cute little cloth dipers I have gotten him. I am also excited to be breastfeeding again. That is something that you can never "get" until you have had that special bond that only a mommy and her baby get to enjoy! I am planning on starting EPO this week, orally. Probably at 36 or 37 weeks, I will switch to "the other way." We are going to see the In Laws this weekend at an apple orchard. That sould be a good time!

I am very lucky in that I have great in laws. They do a lot for us, and are just plain good people. I do have one SIL though that makes me a bit batty! As a person, I like her (I really, do). As a family member, she sends me into a tizzy. She is in her 30's with kids and is financially dependent on her parents. I could go on and on, really. One of the said children is pretty much crazy, and I have no doubts that he will end up on the wrong side of the law at some point (still too young to know for sure). The whole situation upsets me to no end, because she is so needy that it affects the rest of us. The other children (grand) in the family have to put up with so much. I am sure eventually, reality will slap her in the face. At least that is what should happen.

I am trying VERY hard to not let other people and their problems affect me so much. I need reminders about once an hour though. It is very hard for me, I am just emotional and I have a strong sense of right and wrong.